Ostriches

     I feel like an ostrich right now. You see, yesterday, my mom was yelling at my brother about how he was like an ostrich, "burying your head underground to hide and not realizing that you're still in danger." (Yes, I know that ostriches don't actually do that, it's just an expression) That's actually describing me too. My parents don't really know that though because I always have on the facade of a studious girl. Truthfully, I'm just watching TV, anime, or K-dramas more than half the time, just dreaming my life away. And I hate reminders that I am. It's all those other Asians that are always like WORK WORK WORK. My parents aren't actually all about that. They always tell me that life isn't all about how well you succeed in school and I know. I don't quite understand what it's all about then. But maybe one day when I'm older and I have my place in the world I will. It's almost National Exams season for AP classes...review is coming along slowly. All my grades are suffering so I'm scared, yet all I can do is sit in front of the computer all day, watching TV and dream. I also eat a triple layered checkered (vanilla/chocolate) cake while I'm at it. It is quite the tragic scene isn't it? Maybe someone out there can relate?
     I've also had a lot of problems with my body image, especially my stretch mark and that layer of funky flab in the lower belly. If anyone actually does end up reading this, I'll probably get bashed for writing this, but our society today has underplayed the power of physical beauty. It's the first impression. Sure, people LIKE you for your personality, but if you don't even look interesting then who will try? I'm sure there are people out there who will. I don't even know why I wonder these things. Well, thanks for reading! :)
Ciao, Jen.