Summer? What Summer?

Well, I am now half way through my first-ish week of summer! Whoo! Actually...it hasn't felt like much of a summer to me. :( I feel like poop right now. Last Friday was awesome though! I had my first vet shadow. I got to watch 4 spays and 1 neuter. Okay, so this next part might gross or freak you out...but I got to touch...their insides...after they were taken out. Yeah, yeah, I know that sounds completely wrong, but how else am I going to learn? Also, one of the females was in heat so her ovaries had actual eggs in them. The vet allowed me and the other shadow to cut the ovaries open. For some reason, I don't get nauseous etc. while watching surgeries or seeing blood. So that was last Friday. This Monday, summer school started and I feel like crying every night. APMacro is definitely NOT my jam. Okay seriously, I'd rather be learning math because at least I have background knowledge, aka how to add things etc. Economics is a completely different realm, and I am just not and economics-minded girl. Seriously. I would probably be the WORST businesswoman ever. Yesterday was the FIRST Team Time Tuesday of the summer!!! WHOOOO!! It actually went REALLY well. We played Ultimate Frisbee and even had enough people to split into two games. Today was only the third day in APMacro, but I already feel dead. The most I can stare at this material for is like an hour and then I'm done. The problem with this class is that it's one of the first ones that I'm having with one of my best friends. She's a more typical Asian, being straight As etc. BUT, she is VERY economics-minded. If you look throughout my past...I am seriously a jealous woman. I get jealous SO easily..even about things that don't matter. I feel like I want to cry everyday because I suck so much at this class. Ironically, this attitude is the complete opposite of the mindset I had in middle school. :( So here I am...being a depressed child without a summer...procrastinating and watching k-dramas every free second.
Ciao for now,
<3 jen.="" p="">P.S. Pray for my survival of this terrible time. Komapsumnida!